I'm back.
Because I want to talk to diary again.
I want to tell diary how I feel inside :(
Your exams had started.
You didn't do well for the first paper.
You felt sad, me too.
But I can only tell you to study hard for the rest of the paper.
You promised, I'm happy. :)
But that doesn't last long.
First text in the morning was not good morning or thanks baby for waking me up.
and was, " can I go club tmr?"
First thing came into my mind was " wtf???"
cause FIRST; early morning you are telling me this?
SECOND; den how about your studying?
I actually thought it was a farewell clubbing for celest.
I was on the edge on allowing you to go.
After that I realized it was not.
But since you want to go so much, I think of an idea.
You finish 6 chapters out of the 8 chapters and I will allow you to go.
You agreed with it I guess.
But when you told me that you going avatar tomorrow with fion and another girl, my heart sank.
I didn't say you confirm can go, I said only if you finish studying.
and why in the hell with her?
You said nicky not confirm, to me that does not make any big difference.
If nicky didn't go are you trying to tell me
" baby I going club with two girls, and 1 of it is the one you hate me being with."
Seriously?!
You know that and you are doing it like there is nothing wrong??
Yeah I know she is your friend.
But... ...
haiz.. nvm.
I know i'm sensitive and you know that too.
But you are not doing anything about it.
When girls says no i'm not jealous? oh no, they are damn jealous.
When girls say nth is OK? no no~ they are not OK at all! and there is something
When girls say never mind just go? hell no! they don't mean it.
I'm like this.
You might think why can't I just say what I think.
Yeah?
You know what your reaction will be?
Jealous for what? she is just my friend what. cannot be friend meh???
what not ok? what thing again sia..
Why cannot go sia? Just go only mah..
after all those do you think you will talk to me nicely?
hmmm?
I know the results so I am doing something to get the results I want.
I'm hinting you not to go, but it seems like that is making you angry.
I think I should stop now.
But what I want to say is,
if after I said NO, you still insist with YES.
Then I don't see a point you asking me in the first place.
You see that?
You asked " can I go?"
I replied " No you can't"
But end up you say " I will be going..."
And i have to say " ok "
I can foresee myself telling you this,
"Have fun (with them)! Don't drink to much (and get drunk & do anything silly)! Go home early ( don't get to close to her)! "
All those in brackets are the things i'm saying in my heart.
oh well...
I'm just being bitchy.
Forget it.
used to it already, yeah?
did I?
hmmm, I'm wondering..
I'm sorry.
* I'm just angry & jealous.
You know it, just ignore me.
I will be fine.
Bye diary~ see you next time
