What should I do?

So many things happened..

I felt the stress from my study and also the stress from you..

I do not dare to say the truth of how I really feel..

I began to hide my feelings, started to hide the real me up..

Because you gave me the feeling that you hate the real me..

It is a wrong to think that we are fine now..

It is wrong to think that you are much more understanding now..

Everything you do just proved me wrong..

I don't feel loved..

I feel stress, because I always have to think what should I say and what I should't say.

I always put that in the first place because I cared about you.

Because I love you! I did not want you to get angry.

Do you know about it????

Do you know how I feel?

I just want to attract your attention..

I felt lonely, I felt useless..

I felt invisible..

What can I do when I need you?

What can I do when I cried and need your shoulder?

What can I do when I want to see you?

I can do nothing! :(

This is the worst thing, because I can do nothing..

Every time, I have to apologies.

Why you are not the one trying to make me happy?

Even when I am not happy, I still act to be happy.

Because I did not want you to get angry. Do you know?

I am not that strong! :(

If I am, than why will I need you?

Have you think about it?

I need you to understand me, not change me to become someone you like.

Because that is not me!

I cried all night, sometimes because of your words, sometimes because of your actions.

I try not to do things you don't like in front of you, because I care for you! :(

You break my heart more than once, but I still forgive you .

Because in the end you will be the one angry.

I will be the one apologising..

Why?????

I am just fucking useless!

FUCK MY LIFE!