fuck my sixth sense

fuck my sixth sense seriously.

fuck it..

God damn hate sixth sense sometimes..

The things I hope it will not happen, it just happen.

fuck it?

argh!!!!

Going a friend house to slack and watch show is fine.

But only you & her??

I believe you, I confirm that..

But I don't believe her.

And I am feeling sucks because of it..

fml~

ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

that's what happening in my brain..

nothing but screaming and vulgar..

throwing my thoughts here..

Because didn't want to quarrel with you..

Please don't do this to me...

I can't take it.

I'm collapsing soon..

I hear a familiar sound again..

A crack on my heart.

That doesn't sound good..

I should just go bath and cry all my thoughts out rather than scolding here.

I really thing that crying is the best way.

Because it helps cry all my thoughts out..

bye...

Fuck my weak heart & fuck my weak brain & fuck myself..

I'm so fucked up.

Thanks :')

After bathe

Don't know why after crying my heart still feel so heavy.

I have not totally walk out from the big hurt you gave me and here comes another.

Not that I don't trust you.

Just that the 100% trust is still not back yet, because I'm feeling insecure.

But what you did just throw all my effort of building the trust into the river.

You should know I'm still building back the trust, but you just make it collapse again.

Maybe to you this is nothing I know, because it's just going to a friend house.

But to me it's a huge thing.

What I think was you should't walk so close with her when the trust I have for you is still in a collapsed situation.

I really think that you have to do while seeing the situation.

You really make me go speechless.

I slap myself trying to wake myself up from this horrible dream.

But I feel the pain on my face & my heart, knowing that it's not a dream

it really HAPPENED.

I tried to smile to convince myself to make myself feel better.

But how stupid can I be?

Because that doesn't work..

It only make me feel pathetic.