Helpless

I feel so cold and helpless..

I just need some respect from you,

I know you have your plans, I know you think for yourself.

I believe that you know what you are doing..

But all I want is you listen to me sometimes..

I just want to make myself useful to you..

I want to find a reason to stay by your side..

I remember those things you tell me during my exam period.

I remember how serious you are which change me totally..

I changed because I listen to you, I think about the things you told me..

I reflect and know what I had did is wrong..

because of you, I turn back in time..

Although it's late but better then never. Right?

No matter what results come out also doesn't matter, because I know I had did my very best..

All I want is to give you support during your last year.

I know this is a very important period to you just like during my O levels.

You were always by my side, although you scold me quite often because I want to see you badly.

But I know by enduring I can achieve more..

Because I believe that listen to you will never go wrong..

I become more mature after we get together..

All my friends and family sense a different in me, and there is when I know I can't live without you.

Because you are the support in my life, without you

it will be like a table without 4 legs and a human without a heart..

Without you I will not know what I really want and what I should do..

You pull me through all tough times..

You go through all those horrible things without leaving me,

although you wanted to leave me twice.

But I am grateful, because I manage to pull you back..

All I want is you stay by my side..

You are my energy, you are my life..

You are like the air around me, which I can't afford to lose..

You are the one I want to be with..

You are the one I want to spend my rest of my life with.

You might think that I think too far,

but to tell you I even think about marriage.. :)

You might have not think about it because you does not have the confident to last with me till that moment.

But I have faith in us,

I have faith in our relationship..

I believe that all those things we had gone through will make us stronger

will make us cherish each other even more..

Because I do..

That's why I start to tell you what I expect and what I does not want to see..

You might find it hard to get used to it.

But I believe, what I ask for is what I have been doing.

That is also the reason why I will ask for it, because I had did it..

I may still make mistake, but I have been trying my best to do things well

I had been trying hard to do what you expect to see..

So please, do something for me..

Make me feel that I am something to you.

Make me feel that I worth, those changes from you..

I always want you to change your attitude towards your family,

that is because I want your parents to think positive of me..

I want to show them that I can change you.

I want to show that we are so in love that our love can change each other..

You know what I mean?

That is my intention..

It is tough to face your parents with a smiley face because I will always get the same reaction..

You never know, and you will always say " just go ah. scared what?"

You does not know how much courage I have to take to look into their eyes and smile and say " Uncle, Auntie"

This two words cause my heart to stop for few seconds...

I hope you can understand me more, and know what I want..

I wish you will not give up and run away.

Because I did not give up and I stay strong at this position..

So don't get someone to replace me..

I love you; I really do ♥