Speechless

I'm disappointed with you and myself..

I realize that my words mean nothing to you..

I realize that after 9months and 9days, I still does not have the power to change you..

For you, I had change so much..

But I don't see you changing for me..

Or you did but I didn't realize???

Whatever I say seems to be crap..

I know you always say the things I say is bullshit.

But at least listen to some ah.. :(

I'm already very tired of nagging.

You think I like to nag at you??

I nag at you because I care for you

I care for you therefore I get angry.

I cry because I felt sad when we quarrel..

I restrict you from having much contact with other girls because I scared you might leave me.

I am scared because I love you to much that I can't afford you to leave..

Please dear, realize it and make the effort to change before I really get tired..

Before I really let go everything and don't care about anything please do something..

I get angry when you say you going lan

because I want you to study..

Because you have paper tomorrow.

You know it but you still go lan..

I get angry but that does not seem to change anything..

You said play for awhile, but how long has it been...

Few hours...

That few hours you can use it for studying but you didn't

I hate it when my words seems useless..

Because it does not make me feel like a girlfriend..

I hate it when you shout at me in the morning when I called..

It makes me feel that what I did was not appreciated..

I wants to ignore you and let you sleep and be late.

But I can't bear to do that..

How useless am I?

I have been wondering this for quite sometime..

I just can't fit to be a girlfriend..

I am useless, stupid, blur and also brainless..

Forget it..

Bye~