Breakdown

Things had been going on well until today..

Today was a total disaster!

First, personally thinks that did not do well in geography although I still can manage it.

Second the fucking physic which screw up everything..

Unit mistake and this that I had not seen before..

Emotional, Mental and Physical breakdown..

I cried when I came out..

Because I know I didn't do well.

I didn't want physic to pull my combined science down.

I did well for chemistry! I really do! :(

Told you about it, expected what you will say..

But I didn't know it hurts so bad..

Every single words hurts me deep..

Is like you poke the wound that had just been cut..

The pain is unbearably..

It hurts so bad because you are the one saying..

You are the one I care, every words you said means everything to me..

Your words are always my motivation..

But today, your words discourage me..

I also wish to do well ah.. :(

You never know, before every paper I study till my head hurts.

I stuff every single thing into my brain, because I want to do well

Because I want to show you that I studied..

I want to show you that I put in a lot of effort..

But when I told you I made mistake in my physic paper,

I wants you to encourage me..

The word "bullshit" breaks my heart when I saw it..

I don't like you to use those words on me..

I feel that I am not that important to you that my words are that rubbish..

I felt discouraged...

I felt useless....

What am I to you??

A fucking bitch who talks bullshit?

I know I act like a bitch sometimes, but believe me I didn't want to act like that too..

What a fucking stupid bitch am I...

Total breakdown today~ -,-"

Going eat, bath den study for POA~

Bye diary!