Missing you ♥

BabyBoy, I really miss you much! ♥

Everyday I was thinking what you have been doing..

Have you been talking to girls..

Have you meet new girl-friends..

Have you eat your dinner, have you drink plenty of water..

I worry bout you every second..

Even when I was at work, you are still in my mind...

When you told me that you will have only one day to meet me, and I have to wait till next weekend..

This few days I was happily waiting for this week to pass..

Because you told me you will be able to meet me next week..

But I doesn't know what you meant was next weekend..

Last night, we say about friends....

Your words tells me that you can live without those girl-friends...

Are they more important than me?????

Why do you have to keep on text them??

I didn't text my guy-friends because I think that they are not that important..

On my phone, there will be only your name in my Inbox and Outbox... (except family members and girl-ex classmate)

You should know...

I had a habit to check your text message because of the things happen that time..

Hope you can understand and let me do that to make myself feel safe..

I does not want you to go club because I can't go..

I want you to bring me along, not go with your friends and go grind or whatever girls..

You told me you only sit there and drink but sometimes your words says that you had contact with girls..

You will say, is nothing just friends..

But your girl-friends group is getting bigger and bigger without you knowing

"why you bother so much"

This sentence sounds so weird..

This sentence make me feel sad within a second..

I feel that I does not have the right to ask you things..

Why do I feel like hmmmm how to say??

Can't explain it in words..

Too hurtful for me to even think why you say that..

I force myself not to think, but I know myself very well..

I can't..

I always take your hurtful words so serious that I will never forget..

How?

This is me.. The silly me..

I can simply forget those hurtful words and just listen to sweet stuff..

But I just can't change this personality of me..

Miss you so much that everyday, I will look around the house..

I always see memories of us..

The view of us cooking tgt and eat tgt and watch show from funsion tgt..

Now we had lesser time for each other, everything seems to be impossible.

You have work and school I have work..

I can hardly find time to find you because mine is a full time job and you had so much things after your school..

There is no time for me..

I know, I understand..

You need money, You want to earn more money..

Who does not want?

I do!

I am trying very hard to earn money too..

I want to save money for other time..

Because I can't make sure that in the future i might have money to eat..

But I also wish to have time with you..

I feel that I no longer know what you are doing everyday unless I asked..

You longer text me saying "Baby eat (: I eating ... ..."

I no longer know when did you eat and what did you eat..

It had been my habit to text you every time before I start eating and after I eaten..

I will want you to know what I am doing..

I want you to know that I am eating my meals..

I does not want you to worry.

I can't change that now..

From the me that never ask people to eat before I eat till now..

I make big changes for you..

Did you realize it?

I really wish you can spare time to laugh with me and know what I want and how I feel..

I wish you can care for me more..

I feel so lonely everyday..

At work, at home or in my heart..

I was hoping to feel warm once again..

Nothing can make me feel that, Only you ♥

Only you can make me feel safe and warm..

You are the straw to me berry~

Familiar?? :)

Just like the word strawberry,

there can't go without each other, if not they will just be straw and berry..

The combination of them produce sweet and sour fruit that just taste exactly like LOVE.

In a relationship, you would't only experience sweet. You have to be balance between sweet and sour.

Only this will make the relationship last, and also make strawberry so popular..

In the end i just want to say, I LOVE YOU ; DARYLYUENGUODONG! ♥